Dare to be Different

Thursday, July 17, 2008

i'm tired of this -

i'm tired of this; i m tired of everything. I had made myself miserable. i dont wanna live, i dont feel proud as long as i live. i live for nothing; is the best i go away from this world. i really hate this.

i really hate myself. i wanna talk to him, but somehow, me myself keep on running away from him. is not like he's gonna eat me or what. Then, why am i so afraid to go near him? i am a COWARD.

this sucks, if why cant i have a normal confidence? ok, fine, i dont have any confidence AT ALL! okay? I'M JUST a stupid normal girl who cant communicate with anybody, not even my bby. nobody understands me, nobody ever listen to me. nobody understand why do i cry easily,

my cheerful side is always inside me. that's why u can hardly see me smiling or laughing all the time. my cheerful is a crazy thing of me, once i am cheerful, meaning i m crazy.

everything is so fake but real to me...

i said i'm a crybaby, i cry easily, but no one believes. i get to cry sometimes for no reason; sometimes just only being scolded for a small thing, sometime just feel jealous; sometime just think that everyone is walking slowy away from me. until now, i show my sad faces most of the time......my happy faces are all in another world, full of happiness...........

for my bby:" you dont really understand me, right? do you think we can go on like this? i'm so tired of running away from you. i'm so tired of not talking to you. Half a year has gone, and we havent talk since we met... i think ....i dont wanna live anymore"

i know you dont have eSpeed to read my blog, but i hope you will read my whole feelings in here...

This post was written at 2:07 PM