Dare to be Different

Thursday, October 16, 2008

i'll never put a smile on my face EVER AGAIN -

i'll never put a smile on my face again.
he never reply the comments i sent to him.
i know i'm getting sick of this.
sometimes, i just wanna impress him that i'm not a coward. but i just cant

Ever since i became 13, i keep on thinking the world is picking on me.
Ever since every single day, i feel like everyone in this world wanted to see me putting a frown forever on my face. i feel like taking a pair of scissors cutting myself.
Every time i want to be happy, everytime i want to smile, i will look at the mirror and i feel like an idiot whenever i smile. Since then, a smile will never suit me.
i've became so insecure, so lack of confidence that i feel like i'm useless. i try to write in my pink book about everything but will it understand? it only let you write whatever is in your heart, in your mind. it doesnt let you cry, it doesnt make you understand.

i really hope he will read some of the blogs i post.
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DAMN FUCK, I DONT WANNA WRITE ANYMORE.

This post was written at 2:23 PM